It is true also that my perspective for quite a few months
has been very dark and lacking genuine enthusiasm. I put one foot in front of the other but it
feels empty most days. At what some
people call too young to leave, I feel I have few choices left to me. I am considered old enough for a senior
discount where I work. I often feel
overly criticized or just under appreciated but don’t we all?
Maybe not.
I work with a young man who is the new golden boy. He is a wonderful person to work with who
often hums with energy and excitement for his job. He is a joy, bright, strong, endlessly
courteous and fun. He is unusual in a
way that makes everyone’s day better. He
is helpful and hopeful and has everything in front of him, at 20. The bosses have noticed and I am thrilled to
see that is happening for him. My hope
is that he has more and more of that in life.
I cannot say that I know where we began to go wrong but
somehow, I became less favored at work and that seemed to happen as my attitude for my
life became less and less hopeful. I cannot seem to change that trend and I
accept the consequences of my place in life though it is hard to come home ebullient like the golden one. I might give it all up if there was a way to become
more golden again and a little less green!
