Its Not Easy Being Green

I came home feeling pretty saggy after a day at work, in the sunshine where three humans called in sick.  True, sometimes you just need an extra day off, for a variety of reasons but my place of work is a small operation and so, there is a ripple effect.

It is true also that my perspective for quite a few months has been very dark and lacking genuine enthusiasm.  I put one foot in front of the other but it feels empty most days.  At what some people call too young to leave, I feel I have few choices left to me.  I am considered old enough for a senior discount where I work.  I often feel overly criticized or just under appreciated but don’t we all?

Maybe not.

I work with a young man who is the new golden boy.  He is a wonderful person to work with who often hums with energy and excitement for his job.  He is a joy, bright, strong, endlessly courteous and fun.  He is unusual in a way that makes everyone’s day better.  He is helpful and hopeful and has everything in front of him, at 20.  The bosses have noticed and I am thrilled to see that is happening for him.  My hope is that he has more and more of that in life. 

I cannot say that I know where we began to go wrong but somehow, I became less favored at work and that seemed to happen as my attitude for my life became less and less hopeful. I cannot seem to change that trend and  I accept the consequences of my place in life though it is hard to come home ebullient like the golden one. I might give it all up if there was a way to become more golden again and a little less green! 

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